I was on MSN chatting to a couple of
friends when Parveen suddenly came on line. I usually keep my status to ‘appear
offline’ to avoid my family on MSN, as the kids always tell their mums (my
sisters) that i'm online, which usually results in my being questioned about
one thing or another.
My reaction to sudden interference from my family is interesting, to the say the least. It's like someone who is allergic to nuts and accidentally eats one - the allergic reaction sets in immediately (I assume, as i'm not allergic to nuts). I was sat on the balcony, enjoying the sun, chatting happily to my friends, when just a few lines from Sameena appear on my screen
and screw up all my thoughts, taking me from normality to fear of reading the next line which appears on my MSN screen.
I got upset quickly, probably because she caught me by surprise and because the conversation inevitably came back to my parents being upset and me being the bad daughter, not doing what she's told. I tried to tell her that my parents tell her one thing, saying they just want to amke amends withy me but are completely the opposite in their attitude towards me - in that they just tell em what to do and are not very nice.
My father no longer wanted to give me money for a deposit on a flat because he didn't know for sure that I wasn't going to run off with someone in the future. That means be with someone they
don’t approve of. Apparently, if he
gave me the money, everyone (the family) would know about it and he'd be even more embarrassed when I inevitably disgraced them again.
At Christmas time , when I'd visited from Spain, one of my male friends, David from Spain had been in London for a day and had asked me to show him around. Of course I did so. I'd
considered pretending he was a girl to Sameena at the time, as i'd been staying at her house and had said I was going to show him around, because I wanted to avoid the inevitable
questions, but then thought, why should I? He was just a friend and there seemed to be no point. Besides, they know I have male friends.
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